10 month old manny, sick with pneumonia |
5/14/2010
A decade
ago, Manny was admitted to the hospital. We’d only had him home 49 days. He had
double pneumonia. Within minutes of being there, he was assigned doctors,
nurses and techs that I still know and who still care for him to this day. That
admission was rough as we were giving a terrifying diagnosis (which turned out
to be a misdiagnosis) and prognosis of less than a month to live.
10 month old Manny with pneumonia |
In the
decade between, we have had amazing and horrifying medical experiences. We’ve
almost lost him countless times. And yet, so far, we keep getting to take him
home with us. Each time, I learn more. Each time, he and I both get a bit more
PTSD triggers.
5/14/20
A decade
later. To the day. Ironically, we were headed to the hospital. This time he was healthy.
This is just for a tiny procedure. Should have been an hour tops and done. Most
people don’t even need sedation for it.
What’s the
procedure? And what is it for? And is it necessary?
The procedure:
He has a hole (stoma) in his skin that does directly into his stomach. He
currently has what is called a G-Tube. (G for Gastric). It’s used for feeding,
hydration, medicines and venting things that shouldn’t be in the stomach. For
Manny, we only use it for venting. They were replacing the G-Tube with a GJ-
Tube. G stands for gastric and J stands for Jejunum (A specific part of the
small intestines). For people who have severe gastroparesis (stomach won’t empty),
putting food into the stomach will just sit there. So they put the food directly
into the small bowel.
A G tube can
be placed at home. I’ve done it many times. Pop the old one out. Pop the new
one in. 5 minutes tops. But a GJ has to be placed in Interventional Radiology
(IR) because the J portion has to be threaded through the stomach into the
small bowel. They confirm the path and tip location with fluoroscopy. This part
should only take 20-40 minutes depending on anatomy. It’s not painful, just
feels weird and some pressure.
G-Tube |
Manny is on
Parenteral Nutrition (Sometimes called TPN). This goes through his veins. It
can be hard on the liver and there can be other major complications (such as
sepsis). He has been very fortunate with little to no complications associated.
His liver numbers are perfect. So it’s been a life-saver for him! He’s on this
because he has severe gastroparesis and feeds cannot go into his stomach. And
he has severe angioedema (a type of allergic swelling) when food goes into his
body, even into his bowel. It’s been life threatening numerous times. Even with
antihistamines, steroids, etc. He’s “drowning” in his own secretions.
J-tube |
But GIs
want to periodically trial him on feeds again. So we have to try. I’ve put this
off for almost 3 years. (They want to try yearly.) We were quite overdue and
she was insisting we try again. Step one is to get this tube.
Problems we
thought we would incur (because in the past we did):
1 1. Manny freaks out emotionally. He
tries but he can’t keep it together. They have to give him Versed. He doesn’t
like it or the effects. This time, he did GREAT! He didn’t need it. He stayed
calm and brave. He was nervous but not freaking out. The Child Life person was
able to go back with him and show a video he’d picked out on his ipad. He
counted down from 5 and was asleep by 3 she said.
2 2. The wrong tube. Several times we
have been told what tube and size would be placed only to come out and find it’s
not right. This time, everyone was on their game! The right type and size of
tube.
3 3. Waking up. He is combative when he
wakes. (Likely the versed.) He has even threatened to bomb the hospital and is
angry with everyone. Once it wears off, he’s a sweetheart again. This time, he
didn’t experience this.
4 4. The team forgetting he has a severe
allergy to a cleaning agent. It’s on his bracelet. It’s documented in his
record. But it’s such a common cleaner they often do it by rote. It causes
major troubles for him for weeks after. This time, they remembered to use the
right cleaner!
Waiting in day hospital |
What I was
NOT prepared for:
- The
anesthesiologist would ignore our conversation and verbal plan for sedation
- He
would lose airway
- Codes
would be called for him
- It
would take multiple experienced experts to keep him alive
- Anesthesiologist
would be deeply apologetic for deviating from the plan
- She
would be telling me a moment by moment account of the horrors
- She
would admit that a key phrase I’d told her likely saved his life
- We
almost lost him
Brave boy headed back to the procedure |
Some key
things that went right:
- The plan was for him to go from day hospital to IR back to day hospital. While he was under, I was allowed to stay in the IR waiting room or go back to his day hospital room. Thankfully, I chose to grab a bite and go back to his room. The seats are more comfy. I could take off my covid mask. I talked to a friend on the phone. It was quiet and peaceful in there. Had I stayed in the waiting room, I’d have seen and heard all the commotion. I’d have known for 2 hours that horrors were happening but not been able to do anything about it! While part of me wishes I could have been praying, I truly think blissfully unaware was better in this situation.
- Instead
of bringing him back to the day hospital, they took him to PACU which is where
they take the kids after surgery for a higher level of observation. THAT’s the
moment I knew something had gone really wrong. This is where the
anesthesiologist met me before we went back to see him to tell me all the ways
it went wrong.
- In
PACU, he got a specific nurse – Suzanne. I’ve known her for about 12 years –
prior to knowing Manny. She has a son with the same type of cleft lip/palate as
Zoe has. She knows me as a Mom. She knows Manny as a patient. She was able to
start advocating for him even before I could get to him. She made dozens of
excellent calls. She and I think VERY much alike when it comes to care for
Manny! It would turn out we needed her several times.
- Once
I got back to see him, he was struggling to breathe. Oxygen wasn’t enough. They
had to set him up on BiPAP with oxygen bleed in. This was the right call.
- The
Surgical team wanted us to stay the night. Suzanne advocated for us to go home
if he would stabilize. Afterall, we have bipap, oxygen and suction at home.
- He
eventually stopped bleeding.
- He
started breathing better on bipap.
- Then
he started to have blood sugar issues (being off TPN for too long. Afterall, we
thought we would be home in a few hours, not 12!) And Suzanne and I discussed
options and got what he needed.
- Daddy
packed up the TPN, bipap, oxygen and brought it to us for the ride home. Therefore
we got discharged. The team said, “If you weren’t ICU mom, I’d never even
consider this!”
PACU |
After effects:
·
Manny
continued to have struggles breathing off and on until bedtime. Bipap was what
he needed. Good night sleep and today, he’s holding his own with breath.
·
He
was blissfully unaware of all the chaos! He simply told me last night, “My throat
hurts”. I told him it was from the tube that went down his throat. What I didn’t
tell him is that even STIIL (more than 24 hours later), his throat is still
weeping blood. The anesthesiologist called it “friable”. We don’t know why.
·
He
has the start of a junky cough. Likely aspiration during the ordeal.
·
He
coughs and says, “Oh no! They gave me Corona!” LOL
Sadly, there will be a next time he
needs a procedure done. Things I have learned from this one will include:
- 1. This time, I’d talked to the anesthesiologist
and we had a plan. Where SHE says it went off tracks is she thought she had
options. She tried those options. From light sedation to several other things
to finally using a glidescope to get intubated. She said that even though I had
TOLD her to please us the glidescope, she didn’t. She says to ONLY consent to
this and no other procedure options. To insist. To put my foot down and say it
clearly so no one will ever go through this again. This was NOT an
inexperienced doctor. And she needed help of MULTIPLE experienced doctors. And
it could have been avoided. All by doing what I’d said at first. She readily
admits that. She will also write it in his chart in big letters. But basically
told me to not agree to anything unless I get written and verbal confirmation they
won’t even attempt anything else.
- 2. All of this was for a procedure that I didn’t even want in the first place. Doctors think it’s no biggie. But this put his life in jeopardy for a trial of something that MIGHT help him a tiny bit. The risk/benefit ratio shifted significantly in my mind yesterday. I will think long and hard before I ever put him under for ANYTHING. I will be able to stand my ground (kindly, of course) with ammunition of “This is potentially life threatening to sedate him”.
Bottom line
is:
We left our
home at 8:30 am and arrived 12 hours later for an “easy” procedure.
We almost didn’t get to bring him home.
We did.
I’m grateful.
We almost didn’t get to bring him home.
We did.
I’m grateful.