Yet ANOTHER medical mistake!
Remember Denver? When
Manny’s TPN pump died and by the time we got off the plane he was
non-responsive? The glucometer read
07. They didn’t believe it and ran it
again. Dripping with sweat, but clammy
cold. Eyes rolled in the back of his
head but eyes open. Etc.
Remember in August when his TPN pump died the same night as
our small house fire? And how when Dan
moved him, he was non-responsive. Same
other symptoms.
Well, last night was another scary, scary moment just like
this all over again. Dan moved him to
his bed (which is a hospital bed touching my bed so I can reposition him all
night). He seemed fine. I put his bipap on, etc. I went to sleep.
1am he started getting really restless. He seemed like he couldn’t find a comfortable position. I removed pillows, repositioned him countless
times. Each time he would settle for 5
minutes and then complaining again. (NOT
typical for him). And then we’d drift off to sleep.
About 1:45 he was not just complaining but he was saying
WEIRD things. Like one time he said
something about his neck being cold. I
put on a blanket. I started wondering
what it could all be about in my half-awake state. Then around 2am, he said his leg was
broken. It was like he was
hallucinating.
It finally triggered me to turn on a light and do a thorough
inspection. I felt like I got a word of
knowledge (I Cor 12 reference) to check his TPN pump. Now mind you, he is having NONE of the
symptoms mentioned above. He’s clearly
not non-responsive as he’s sorta talking to me.
He’s not clammy, cold, sweating, etc.
THOSE symptoms I recognize immediately!
So on a whim I check his pump and it’s not on. In fact, it’s not been started since it was
connected at 8pm. So he’s 6 hours
overdue for his TPN. I immediately get
him a dose of glucose. I start his
pump. And then I do a glucose test. It was 26.
I shudder to think what it was before I started treating him.
At this point, he goes non-responsive. He doesn’t even flinch when I do his glucometer
test on his toe.
And it hits me … he SHOULD have been non-responsive this
whole time. How in the heck did he
communicate to me the need for help?
I ponder. Dan and I
pray a prayer of thanksgiving for sparing his life yet again. We try to go back to sleep knowing his blood
sugar is back under control.
Mercifully, we were able to sleep.
I awoke this morning with a scripture memory song I learned
years ago, “And He shall give His angels charge over you…” It’s a happy little
diddy and I woke up with this thought.
I went over to Bible Gateway on my iphone from my bed (I
wasn’t about to leave Manny). And I
typed this message on Facebook:
Last night, about 2 am, we were awakened to a life threatening medical problem with Manny in a dramatic fashion. We were able to handle it and he is now fine again. We were even (mercifully) able to eventually go back to sleep (which is often difficult after traumatic experiences).I will share more details later. But I woke up with these verses in my head.For those who trust The Lord, We TRULY can trust God with our very lives. He WILL find ways to alert us to problems. He WILL get our attention. He WILL teach us, in those moments, knowledge that is beyond our normal human capacity. For he who has an ear to hear, let him hear.Psalm 91:9-16If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,” and you make the Most High your dwelling, no harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent.For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. You will tread on the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent."Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”
It
was painfully clear to me that God sent angels to do “something” to Manny and
rouse him enough to talk to me and tell me that he needed help. And then the word of knowledge to know what
to look for and what to do.
It
was also very clear that yesterday was NOT Manny’s time to go be with The Lord. Or I would have woken up to a lifeless baby
next to me. And the reality of that has
hit me so many times today it’s not funny.
But
the worst part? The part I’m having
trouble with? It was MY fault. I hooked him up. This wasn’t a pump failure. This was human error. I know it happens every day. I know it’s not possible to be perfect. It’s something I’ll have to “forgive” myself
for. But as of right this second, I
don’t have that peace yet. I’m NOT
searching for people to give me a pep talk or tell me how many times I’ve kept
Manny alive or that I need to let it go or whatever. I’m simply sharing the ups and downs of this
adventure with Manny. And today’s
reality is … My mistake almost cost my kid his life.
But
God.
Never
forget how much He loves you and cares for you.
He rejoices over you with singing.
(Zeph 3:17). Did you know that? God SINGS over you. He’s not a distant, angry God. He loves you and delights to spend time with
you.
The
gratefulness
that God has us
in the palm of His hands is overwhelming.
that God has us
in the palm of His hands is overwhelming.